Sleeping Alone

Things were a little different last night and this morning. And, I'm not sure that I like the feeling. You would think having time to yourself and freedom would be welcomed... but there is something missing. Last night Rach and Addy had a sleepover at Rachel's Mom's (aka Grammy) House. I had some work to do at home, so I couldn't stay there. After we all had dinner and settled in, Addy had fallen asleep for the night. It was time for me to head home, I kissed Rachel and snuck into the room where Adeline was sleeping and gave her a gentle kiss, not to wake her. As I was driving away I had a strange sense, "this doesn't feel right", and I realized this may be the first night since Addy was born that we aren't all sleeping in the same bed together. I think, for some people, it would be hard to understand that I wouldn't want this time of peace, but I think those people may not be new parents. This illustrates how my life has changed, I woke up this morning and got out of bed by my own volition, but I wish that Addy had woke me up. I had no diapers to change this morning, and I missed it. Man, how being a Daddy can change you.

A Day Away

I'm feeling pretty beat and unproductive today. Yesterday, I got up at left the house as usual on a normal day, but instead of driving to the shop, I drop straight to Worcester Ma. It was about a 2 1/2 hour drive but starting the day off, it didn't seem that long. My company has been a sponsor of the New England Metal & Hardcore Festival for about 4 years now, and I usually go out for the whole thing. This year I just drove out for one day, because I didn't want to leave my ladies for that long. My partners went a day and a half earlier than I did, when I got there early Friday morning the tables and shirts were already set up.

While I was there, between talking to bands and selling kids shirts, we all find things to do when we are trapped behind the tables. I started to count the kids walking by that were wearing shirts that I had designed over the years, I stopped counting around 30. It may have been thinking of other things, like how I missed Addy and Rachel. Rachel sent me a text, and I happily opened up a picture of Addy just chillin' on a Friday afternoon, while Daddy was surrounded by thousands of sweaty people, far from chillin'

All in all, it was a fun time. I saw some good bands, hung out with my partners (who are also my friends) outside of working, which doesn't happen too often, and got to talk face to face many of the kids that order from our company, and some of the bands that we work with. 

It was a late drive (especially due to the post Daddy bedtimes that have been going on lately) to Rachel's Mother's house, where Rachel had spent the day. When I got there, Rachel was still awake, but I barely was. We went right to bed and woke up all together again, not even noticing that this was the first time we had all slept somewhere else besides our own home. We got up and went downstairs to find that Grammy had made us an amazing breakfast, We have to do some sleepovers more often. 

Rise and Smile

I know that some people are morning people, and other can be the walking dead until the afternoon. Is this the same for babies? I'm not sure if my experiences are unique to our wake up routine with Adeline. This scene is a common occurrence... let me illustrate: Adeline has been sleeping in Mommy's arms, she shifts a little, begins to open her eyes and lifts her head, turns her head side to side, makes eye contact with me, and gives me a huge happy smile. All of this, from eyes open to ear to ear smile, happens within a span of 10 seconds. Is this strange? do we have the most agreeable waking baby ever? Addy waking is one of my favorite times, I love being there to see it. ... these are the types of things that make me smile at night before I go to bed, and when I wake up in the morning to find her and Mommy sleeping beside me, it makes me get that same smile that Addy has given me, I think I know where she gets it from.